Repeat Offender Luckyv2 AKA Chance AKA Vic

[Chance]

Chance AKA Vic
Well Maybe I should start by giving this site a piece of me personally.

My name is Vic and I am a alcoholics of sorts. I am also what is classified as a "Repent Offender". I have many things that I struggle with in life, many physical, mental, and spiritual issues. I lost many of those things because of my choices in life.

I've been married and divorced three times In my life. The first two marriages didn't even last a year. The third and bless her heart, stayed with me for 15 years. They say that there is the one in your life especially designed for you, and I always thought and still am sure that Shelley was mine. But because of my Alcoholism and the choices that I've made I lost her back in 2001.

That year I was busted for possession of a controlled substance (meth) and armed robbery. I do want you to know right now that I really even don't remember this even up to today. No excuse. I was than in jail back at this time I was making around 120,000 plus a year. We were financially set if I didn't use. During most of our time I was sober, because she said to me one day, "Vic, you can smoke your pot but I don't want you to drink, you turn into someone that I don't want." I kept that promise, and I never did any meth either. Well

Somewhere in July 2000 I started using meth. First hiding it from her than like I am getting her to use with me. I ended up getting busted on the July 0f 2001. I did a plea bargin with the courts and got 3 years of ISP (Intensified Supervised Probation, court cost fees, and a fine. I had one assurance during my probation where I relapsed. I got a sanction on that but I still had to start my sobriety over.

I finished with my out-patient treatment, and continued down to nothing but staying sober. I went to all the meetings I could attend, had bowling parties for our group, went on picknicks just everything you would enjoy doing and I was very happy. I remember when I first got in the program after the wife kicked me out of the house I lived in a two bedroom trailer, trashed, had running water but no gas or electric. So I carried water in, I bought a rec-center pass so I could shower daily, that was like $40.00 for a 3 month pass back than. I did whatever I had to do and I was VERY Happy.

Than my health turned on me and I couldn't work anymore. I've tried and tried to get work but the way it is now, I would have to have a in-home job to make a living which I am trying to do.

woops got side tracked Tongue

Anyways I was sober for 25 months 15 days and so many hours when I relapsed and that wasn't until my Sister Marie who died got taken to Lincoln to the Madonna Rehabilitation Hospital I started to drink a little, and that took me right into Meth. I tried it in Lincoln and didn't get high, I talked with my close mouth friend and he said it was my choice to start my day over or not. I didn't but in November or December after I moved back from Lincoln, (oh yeah I moved there to be closer to her but my breathing couldn't take the humbity) and I went down and got me a bottle of Canadian Springs and a 6 pack of bud bottles. I was smoking pot too also I had to give up my sites cause of this. I once had 6 sites that were doing very well!

So I didn't start using the meth until March or April of this year, but that wasn't my intentions, I went down to buy a 6 pack of beer to call my nerves. Next thing I know is I am shooting up dope after being off of it for long time. I was on it and I wanted to die, homicide, suicide it didn't matter. I just wanted someone to push me off of the fence I was on and I didn't care which side I feel on.

I started running away from me. I was in a place that wasn't good for me to be in. I did a lot of wrong things during this period in which I still could get into a lot of trouble about. But I am not running. I am here. You are here. Now I think this is what you have been wanting from me my friend and I hope that this explains a lot.

I don't want any sympathy. If you look that up in the dictionary it is in between shit and Sisyphus J/K maybe though. So

I asked my case worker and she gave me a couple of website names that she knows is legit and I could get paid for like typing or something for them so I am going to go check that out as well. I just want to be self-supporting the rest of my life, It is my turn to quit taking and start giving.

Thanks for allowing me to share.

With Love and Respect

Retread

Vic

Been sober N since September 8, 2009 and for that I am truly Grateful

[scaredykat]

Thank you for sharing your story Vic.

Glad your back on our side of the fence. :hugs:

[slow-n-easy]

Hi Vic,

Thanks for the low-down on what's been up with you. Actually we have been sharing with one another for some time now. I am slow-n-easy aka Ed C. from the RC website.

Sort of knew you before this last slip. Would really like to work with one another in not having that happen again to you. I have been coming around sites like this one with the idea of getting people to talk together with one another on real recovery again.

See that you had started to talk about the Big Book on this site. I'm just going to say that the study and working with one another out of the Big Book is one of the primary reasons why I have had ten years of uninterrupted sobriety. Don't have too many people that want to do that any more. Just a bunch of cutting and pasting almost every where I go now a day.

You bring up the topic and I'll respond. I promise! I know for a fact that during the time we work with one another in that fashion, that it is very unlikely that either one of us will have the urge to use anything. In fact I also know that it fortifies the spiritual aspects of our lives so when the time of insanity comes, the truth that we find while working with one another helps in pushing out the insane idea.

Dude our lives are so much a like in so many ways (even down to being born hours apart), that I know we can help one another stay sober. We just have to take the initiative to do it. It's good to know you Vic. With Love and Respect, Ed C.

[Carol87]

((( Hugs )))

[Chance]

Originally Posted by slow-n-easy

Hi Vic,

Thanks for the low-down on what's been up with you. Actually we have been sharing with one another for some time now. I am slow-n-easy aka Ed C. from the RC website.

Sort of knew you before this last slip. Would really like to work with one another in not having that happen again to you. I have been coming around sites like this one with the idea of getting people to talk together with one another on real recovery again.

See that you had started to talk about the Big Book on this site. I'm just going to say that the study and working with one another out of the Big Book is one of the primary reasons why I have had ten years of uninterrupted sobriety. Don't have too many people that want to do that any more. Just a bunch of cutting and pasting almost every where I go now a day.

You bring up the topic and I'll respond. I promise! I know for a fact that during the time we work with one another in that fashion, that it is very unlikely that either one of us will have the urge to use anything. In fact I also know that it fortifies the spiritual aspects of our lives so when the time of insanity comes, the truth that we find while working with one another helps in pushing out the insane idea.

Dude our lives are so much a like in so many ways (even down to being born hours apart), that I know we can help one another stay sober. We just have to take the initiative to do it. It's good to know you Vic. With Love and Respect, Ed C.

Thanks I just saw this kinda lazy around here I suppose.

Yeah I need a meeting today, won't get one though. I did post about it somewhere around the Internet world

Have a great day hope we can stay sober for today...

[Chy]

You've been extended the hand buddy so grab on!