Mentally Different

10-05-2008, 07:09 AM

Mentally Different is putting it really mild don't ya think? LMAO

I really never thought of myself being mentally different than other people until I got into the Program. And than I would still not believe what they were saying.

Than I got into counseling and seeing a Doctor and they said, "Oh yeah, you are mentally different than some, but not mentally different than others."

I guess I didn't really understand what the Program was trying to tell me at that time, but through the process I have learned to not only understand what the Program was teaching but I have also come to accept the fact that yes I am mentally different than most of my fellows. I have to accept and acknowledge this fact in order to have the surrender that is needed to acquire the process of recovery.

But not only did I suffer from the mental part that the Program offered I also suffer from other forms of illnesses of this field. Oh sure, I have tried to deny that also, but finally had to learn to accept that fact also.

I still do struggle when it comes to taking medications for my mental illness. Today I don't take anything but I am sure that I should be on some sort of a mood stabilizer I just don't like the way in which they make me feel. So with that being said....

I had my longest run staying sober n clean when I was on my medications. I was taking Lexapro 20mg and also Serequel 100mg-200mg each day. Not much medication really which is pretty good, but I still didn't like the part where I couldn't feel. Well, let's say it was harder for me to show emotions and still even than I don't think that I was all that happy either.

So I think mostly that all people not just alkies/addicts or maybe most suffer from some depression from time to time. Normally I don't know if it is the depression so much as it is other things. However my Doctor or Physiologist says that I might even suffer from PTSD from my childhood.

Well anyways I just wanted to vent a little this morning so that is what I did

JDSOBER · 10-08-2008, 03:00 PM

I totally relate to this Vic
Wow amazing I too feel the same way concerning medications
I remember a few years ago before my Dad died he and my mom got me a computer from their shop I really was happy to finally get one

ok several years I guess but point is he was upset because I didnt look happy and I was happy of course they were mac people and Im a pc person but mone the less I was thrilled but couldnt show it

Lexapro been on that...and afew other meds but I began gaining weight and I said this has to stop I eventually weaned myself off because Id be over 400 lbs now if Id stayed with it Ive tried all different kinds of meds some made me shake uncontrollably and the dr said well maybe if you just try it a few weeks it will eventually stop---to which I replied I dont think so.

Like you I wasnt all that happy either ... I am hoping you can keep at staying clean and sober one day at a time...Thats my prayer anyway ...and not for anyone else but so you are clean and sober for you

Love Peace Hope and Healing
JD

carlin7386 · 11-23-2009, 12:05 PM

discussion is useful thanx for posting

10-05-2008, 07:09 AM	#1
Chance Guest Posts: n/a	Mentally Different Mentally Different is putting it really mild don't ya think? LMAO I really never thought of myself being mentally different than other people until I got into the Program. And than I would still not believe what they were saying. Than I got into counseling and seeing a Doctor and they said, "Oh yeah, you are mentally different than some, but not mentally different than others." I guess I didn't really understand what the Program was trying to tell me at that time, but through the process I have learned to not only understand what the Program was teaching but I have also come to accept the fact that yes I am mentally different than most of my fellows. I have to accept and acknowledge this fact in order to have the surrender that is needed to acquire the process of recovery. But not only did I suffer from the mental part that the Program offered I also suffer from other forms of illnesses of this field. Oh sure, I have tried to deny that also, but finally had to learn to accept that fact also. I still do struggle when it comes to taking medications for my mental illness. Today I don't take anything but I am sure that I should be on some sort of a mood stabilizer I just don't like the way in which they make me feel. So with that being said.... I had my longest run staying sober n clean when I was on my medications. I was taking Lexapro 20mg and also Serequel 100mg-200mg each day. Not much medication really which is pretty good, but I still didn't like the part where I couldn't feel. Well, let's say it was harder for me to show emotions and still even than I don't think that I was all that happy either. So I think mostly that all people not just alkies/addicts or maybe most suffer from some depression from time to time. Normally I don't know if it is the depression so much as it is other things. However my Doctor or Physiologist says that I might even suffer from PTSD from my childhood. Well anyways I just wanted to vent a little this morning so that is what I did

10-08-2008, 03:00 PM	#2
JDSOBER TOGETHER WE CAN! Join Date: Aug 2008 Location: Missouri Posts: 2,099 Thanks: 2,026 Thanked 3,076 Times in 1,615 Posts Blog Entries: 4 My Mood:	I totally relate to this Vic Wow amazing I too feel the same way concerning medications I remember a few years ago before my Dad died he and my mom got me a computer from their shop I really was happy to finally get one ok several years I guess but point is he was upset because I didnt look happy and I was happy of course they were mac people and Im a pc person but mone the less I was thrilled but couldnt show it Lexapro been on that...and afew other meds but I began gaining weight and I said this has to stop I eventually weaned myself off because Id be over 400 lbs now if Id stayed with it Ive tried all different kinds of meds some made me shake uncontrollably and the dr said well maybe if you just try it a few weeks it will eventually stop---to which I replied I dont think so. Like you I wasnt all that happy either ... I am hoping you can keep at staying clean and sober one day at a time...Thats my prayer anyway ...and not for anyone else but so you are clean and sober for you Love Peace Hope and Healing JD __________________

11-23-2009, 12:05 PM	#3
carlin7386 Junior Member Join Date: Nov 2009 Posts: 2 Thanks: 0 Thanked 2 Times in 2 Posts	discussion is useful thanx for posting Last edited by yukonm; 11-24-2009 at 06:53 AM. Reason: remove link

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